As I mentioned recently, I had a job interview yesterday for a marketing role that I was really keen to get. As I also mentioned, it is a pretty senior role that I never thought I could get. Well, as it happens, I did really well in the interview, and they’ve asked me to come back in on Monday and give a presentation!

They want me to basically give a two part presentation involving

1/ a demonstration of how I would quickly and efficiently familiarise myself with their company and products.
2/ a fictional product they want me to develop a marketing initiative for

So I have four days to get something put together. I’m supposed to spend about 20 minutes talking, after which I’ll be given yet another grilling, this time by the Sales Director.  The job in question is to actually be the ENTIRE marketing department for this company! o_O

They’ve gone through two people in two years, and they want someone fresh, enthusiastic and full of ideas. I think I put it across very well that I am the person for the job….

Only now I’m wondering if I really am.  It seems way over my head. I don’t have any marketing qualifications, nor do I really have any concrete marketing experience. I haven’t claimed any experience I haven’t had, but I’ve “marketed” myself a certain way to achieve a good result. But now I’m sitting here doubting my own abilities and thinking of various reasons not to do the interview!

I’ve given presentations before. In fact, as an ex-flight attendant, I can boast experience of public demonstrations to up to 50 people at once! So presenting to two people should be no issue. Especially as this will be a big part of the job if I get it!

I went out today and bought a book titled “How To Market Your Business - A practical guide to advertising, PR, selling and diret and online marketing.”  I’m hoping it’ll help me come up with some great ideas.

I wish I knew why I so often talk myself out of the positive things in my life. I guess I feel like if I don’t try, then I can’t fail. What I need to get through my head is that not trying IS failing.

Bah.

I suppose my attitude isnt helped by the fact that I’m ill. I got a headache before bed last night, and I woke up with a terrible migraine this morning. I wound up in bed until 2 PM! I spent all day in excruciating pain, nauseous and feeling like I’d been hit by a truck.  A bath, some lemsip and a lot of quiet seems to have helped, but I’m still not feeling great.

Anyway, in other news, yesterday I attended the Endocrinology Clinic at the Royal Berks. I’ve been waiting for an appointment since I got back from Brno.  Basically while I was in hospital, they found out I had low cortisol levels, and as that can be life threatening, I was made an emergency priority when I got back.  (Of course, the fact that I STILL had to wait an extra 5.5 weeks despite my emergency status just shows how difficult the NHS can really be.)

The short story is that I am going back on Tuesday morning for the test that will determine whether I definitely have Addison’s Disease or not. They will draw blood, inject me with some horomone, and then draw blood again at half hourly intervals. If I have the disease, I’ll be on hydrocortisone for the rest of my life. BOO! If I don’t have it, they will slowly wean me off of the 25 mg per day I’ve been taking.

In other other news, Ross and I had a fight tonight. He left the house a couple hours ago, and I’ve no idea where he’s gone. I’m not sure I really care right now.